I'm thinking of changing my blog title to: Sojourning Sheila {and so I did}.
What I write reflects who I am. Six years ago, when I started blogging, I was inspired by the beauty of making a home and being a helper Imago Dei. I'm still inspired, yet, refined. Several years ago, my vision of being a homemaker (albeit inspired by scripture) had begun to crowd out who I really am- a sojourner; not finding here any continuing home, but rather looking to the eternal home promised me in Christ.
Psalm 39 is a template of my recent life. Spiritually, the rhythm of things {the last 7 years} has been harmonious with David's expression in Psalm 39.
I was off course and I realized it at the correction of my good Father. I decided to shut my mouth and guard my ways, hence a nearly complete backing off of all my blogging and writing 4 years ago. But when I don't write, when I keep my mouth shut, a fire burns in me. I have told others I feel as though God has shut my mouth. He has.
"I am mute; I do not open my mouth, for it is you who have done it."
In the past year I have begun writing publicly more often again. And every time I write here, and see that title: A Homemaker's Meditations, I am reminded of my previous obsession with being home and my off-course plan from which my Lord has lovingly corrected me (although like David I have often felt his discipline has consumed like a moth that which is dear to me- even so He is exceedingly good. Blessed be the Name of the Lord!).
Yesterday we received keys to our new fixer-upper home. It was as I drove there that the words of Psalm 39, especially verse 12, washed over me like clean water. God has moved us there. Doors have been shut that seemed to be unshutable. Doors have opened fast and wide that seemed very likely to close. And there's fear in the air hissing it's temptation to grab hold tightly and yet the Prince of Peace pervades, pushing back fear like an invisible shield.
This world is not my home
I'm just a passin' through.
My treasures are laid up
Somewhere beyond the blue.
If a man has Christ and nothing, he has infinitely more than if, without Christ, he has all the family, finances and security this world offers! I have Him. I am His and He is mine! I can hold every thing He gives me with an opened hand.
Aim at heaven and you will get earth thrown in. Aim at earth and you will get neither. - C.S. Lewis
Quieted,
Sheila
